i want this perfume but juicey couture it's called "Eau de Parfum" and the other is "Viva la Eau de Parfum" but it's really expensive like 65 to 85 dollars...it would make a nice gift but i guess i'll get it someday. i think i'm pregnant...mother nature hasn't came yet. i wasn't reg. in a while but i got back to being reg. and now it just stopped. we used a condom all the times we did it. i guess you could say that i praying for mother nature...i don't have morning sickness, so thats a good thing, but i heard that your lower part of your tummy gets hard, mine feels like it's a little hard. and i don't know if i can go to my primary health place b/c they don't take family plans(my plan doesn't cover it) and i don't wanna ask my mom b/c i don't wanna tell her that i'm doing it...it's not that i'm acting imature it's just that i don't wanna talk about sex with her. shes a my mom lol weird

well it lokks like i wont see him for a while..............*cries* i miss him so much; his smell(sorry about attacking you michael), his eyes, hugs, kisses, and need i say more? I MISS HIM! it really sucks damn i wish i had a car or even better i wish i lived near him. i'm soooo happy that my other journal entry made him blush, i wish i was there to see it. i wish i could be snowed in with him but i can't....but i know that everyting will work out for the best!

i need to fill out an application for the hospital jobs. housekeeping, transporting, and a greeter. yep i hope this works out it would be sooooooooo awesome. but it looks like i have to go there and fill it out.

i must be stupid to think that things would be fine...this is why i try to always think on negative side...yeah i'm a possitve person it's just i don't ignore the negativity. damn it really does suck. i didn't cry much some tears came but i stopped it i will never again waste my tears over "that" again. i'm use to stuff like this happening so i wont let it get me down, i'll try my hardest even though it tears me apart inside. right now i know that it's not much to be upset about and i already know that i'm making a moutain out of a rock but i don't want it to happen again. i feel so pathetic right now and to know that "it" will eventually happen makes me want to curl up in a ball and forget everything. maybe i should talk to my mom about it. i know it's not my fault but i feel like maybe if i wasn't a fool than this would have never happend. one would think that this wouldn't phase me since it happens so much but it does...and i'm trying my damn hardest to look on the bright side but i keep thinking about it and what it "could" lead to.

what a pity...

:'((

damn...i never tought i would say this but i'm so upset that i don't wanna even be on the computer...

oh my...it's hot in my house like really hot.
well anyways i think that i'm overreacting; the last time i was with this certain person((you know who you are when your reading this XD)) i was looking at him and for some reason he just got hotter(even though he's already hot) he just got more hotter by the minute. damn i must sound like a perv. i couldn't look at him and if i did i had the urge to pounce on him...thank god his friend was there *nose bleed*. when i got home that night my clothes smelled like him the next day so i was hugging them and my sis thought i was crazy and my mom was like "your gonna wear them out ashley" omg i miss him soooo flippin much. -whew- i needed to get that off of my chess...but i'm sooooo flipping happy that i get to see him friday and spend a night...ehhhhhhhh

i ate too much chocolate!!!~


curses whaaaaaaaaaa


MICHAEL!~

shes feeling better thank goodness...